blessed

I was reminded today just how truly blessed we are to have Hayden in our lives. Hayden had her 4 month check up and shots today and everything looked great. She is a perfectly healthy girl. After returning to my office I heard the story of our IT guy who's wife had twins prematurely. One of the girls did not make it and the other twin has lots of health issues. They don't know the long term effects that their daughter will live with. I could hear the hurt in his voice. I could see the pain in his eyes. He's happy to have one little girl clinging to life and mourning the loss of his other little girl. How quickly I've forgotten that pain. How quickly I remember that feeling. That feeling I carrried with me every day. That whisper in the back of my mind that I could never drown out. The cold sweats I would wake up with. How do we forget so easily? Now my worries have changed... Is she gaining enough weight? Will she be smart? Will she sleep through the night? How petty these worries are compared to what rang in my mind for 5 months. I pray I never forget the feeling in my stomach of not knowing whether or not I would have a healthy baby. I pray I never take Hayden's health for granted because there are so many dealing with so much more. I pray I never let the everyday drama overcome the happy ending that I got on that cold February day when I heard her first cries. How blessed am I to wake up to this face every day...